Lucas Samaras

Photo-Transformation, August 17, 1976


ALTHOUGH HE COULD MANIPULATE AT WILL HIS AWARENESS SELF OVER OR THROUGH ANY PART OF HIS BODY OR ACTIONS, HE DISMALLY REALIZED EARLY THAT HIS THINKING SELF WAS A FREE AGENT WHO COULD COME AND GO UNANNOUNCED, AND THE TOPMOST HE COULD DO WAS TO SET TRAPS FOR IT OR PRETEND NOT TO CARE, SHREWDLY KEEPING ON THE ALERT AN EARLY THINKING WARNING SYSTEM. TO HIMSELF HE WASN'T A PARTICULARLY GLOOMY MAN THOUGH HE FOUND IT REFRESHING DEFYING COMIC TO TALK OF GRUESOME THINGS. IF YOU WERE TO ASK HIM WHAT HE WAS DOING, THAT BEING THE FIRST THING ANYONE ASKED HIM, HE'D TELL YOU HE WAS WATCHING HIS HANDS OR WASHING HIS SOCKS OR THINKING OF YOU, OR NOTHING IN PARTICULAR, BUT IF HE ASKED THE SAME QUESTION TO HIMSELF IT WOULD MORE OFTEN THAN NOT BROIL-BOIL DOWN TO THE FACT THAT HE WAS WAITING FOR DEATH.